The Truth, but not the Whole Truth, and pretty much not Nothing But the Truth

“Facts are stubborn things, and whatever may be our wishes, our inclinations, or the dictates of our passions, they cannot alter the state of facts and evidence.” - John Adams

John Adams said that while very unpopularly defending the British Soldiers accused of the killings known as the Boston Massacre. Adams’ words are still true, but they don’t seem to mean very much these days. It seems like we'd usually rather take a subset of the facts, spin the crap out of them and repeat them very loudly, and enough people will believe our story to confuse the issue.

So what’s really true these days is that we’re becoming more and more accustomed to telling and believing a subset of the truth. This is true in Israel and Palestine. It’s true in Iran and Iraq. It’s true in Russia and the Ukraine. It’s true if you’re an Argentinian or a Columbian futbol fan. It’s true in Congress and in the White House. It’s true when Democrats say, “Republicans want to deprive women of access to contraception!” It’s true when the Republicans say, “No, we don’t.” It’s true when gun advocates say that gun control advocates want to take away all of their guns. It’s true when gun control advocates say that guns kill and are bad and wrong and need to be curtailed. We take a portion of the truth, and we believe it, and we pick a side as a result. Once we’ve picked a side, woe to you who might consider trying to change our minds!

We don’t seem to care about truth as a society. Perhaps we never did. We care about winning, and we don’t really care what winning means, other than what it means for us and, sometimes, for those close to us. We don’t care about solutions that might work for everyone. We don’t care about accepting the truth that most solutions don’t work for everyone and communicating with those for whom a solution doesn’t work, so they can make other plans. We care about getting ours, or keeping it. We care about our own good above the public’s.

Maybe we can try to be completely truthful with each other for a time. Maybe we can try to see and understand the other person’s point of view. Maybe we can help them understand ours. Maybe doing all three of those things around one issue will help us figure out a third alternative that works for all of us or a great majority of us. I’d sure like to try.

American Muscle

I watched the inaugural episode of Discovery’s new reality show, American Muscle, about Mike Barwis and his training facility. I’m a big fan of Barwis. I find him inspiring and motivating. I admire and want to emulate his drive. He seems to be one of the most congruent people I have ever seen, able to work hard in each moment on improving and sharing his gifts. There just seems to be nothing fake or false or hidden about the guy. Last night’s episode of “American Muscle” did nothing to dispel those notions.

He and his team push people beyond their physical limits. They do this because they know that conquering your mental limitations is usually a lot harder than conquering your physical limitations, and they want the people they train to believe in themselves, to believe they can accomplish great things.

We can all accomplish great things. What inspires me about Barwis is that he knows this, and he finds his own greatness in helping push other people closer to theirs.

What makes you the happiest...

What makes you the happiest probably also carries the greatest risk of heartbreak. It's usually worth the chance.

On Self-Confidence

[Caveat: When I say “you” in this piece, I don’t necessarily mean you. Hopefully, that’s clear to you as you read, and clear in the way you believe in yourself.]

I am growing in the opinion that the most necessary ingredient for success in life is self confidence. You just have to believe in yourself. You have to. If you don’t believe in you, you either force others to try to buoy your confidence or you give them permission to treat you as less than you are or are capable of being.

Having others buoy your confidence can be addictive. It feels so nice, when you’re down, for someone to hug you and tell you it will be ok, to sit with you for a while. At some point, though, friends and colleagues will get tired of trying to prop you up. Frankly, it’s exhausting, and it keeps those of us who want to help from doing the most good we could be doing, not to mention all the good you could be doing in the world if you could find the kind of help that would get you to stop, to believe in yourself.

Go to Tumblr sometime and look at the anorexics and self harmers on there. On second thought, don’t. It will make you immeasurably sad. I think that a lack of self faith or self confidence drives almost all of these people. There are a few who just have brains that are improperly wired. The rest have trained their brains to seek attention through these methods. I don’t want to sound unsympathetic to those who have eating disorders or who self harm. I love and admire all of you, and I desperately want you to win whatever battle it is you’re fighting. I want to help. In my estimation, though, the most significant impact, the greatest improvement for you will come from having some faith in you and what you’re capable of accomplishing.

In speaking of self confidence, I think Marianne Williamson might have said it best [emphasis mine]:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

That’s the long version. What’s most important to me is this: “...as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” You, by simply believing in yourself, have a surprising impact on others. You don’t have to be a complete, fully formed success. You don’t even have to be successful at anything. You just have to believe that you are a good and decent human being, and you have to believe that you are capable of greatness. And you have to keep believing it. “Sure, I’m a small frail creature prone to failure, but I am also a miracle, capable of miracles. I can do so much.”

And here’s the second secret: If you believe you are capable - if you believe in yourself - the best way to maintain that confidence is to work. Find something you love to do and throw yourself at it. You might not win all the time or any of the time, but if you enjoy it and you believe in yourself, you will keep getting better and better. And you’ll like what that improvement does in turn for your confidence and your ability to believe in yourself, which will cause you to want to work harder, which...! You’re getting this. I can tell.

Sure, I’m sugar coating this a little. Life will, as Sarah Kay puts it so beautifully, “... hit you, hard, in the face, [and] wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach. But getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air.” If you believe in yourself, when you get knocked down, you’ll get back up again, and perseverance is another of the great requirements in life for success.

So believe in you. It’s not hard. Given all we know about science and nature, the fact that you exist at all is an extraordinary miracle. That makes you an extraordinary miracle! Do you know what’s even better than that? You, you miracle, you, are capable of extraordinary miracles. Knowing that, how could you not want to try to explore the limits of your incredible capabilities.

Here is the paradox: within this vast universe, we are small, frail creatures, prone to failure, and yet, we are perfect miracles, capable of miracles. You can do whatever it is you put your mind and heart to. I believe in you. Do me the honor of believing in you, too.

On those heavy conversations you have to have with your kids.

I’m a father of daughters.

I love my girls so very much more than I might have ever imagined possible, and I wouldn’t trade them for boys or for anything. They amaze me every day. They are brilliant and witty and entertaining and wise beyond their years. They are kind, loving and gentle souls. They are beautiful, like their mother.

However, they are girls. And one of the peculiarities of being a father of daughters is that every one of us who is a father of daughters was once a teenage male. (Truth: Some fathers of daughters are teenage males. Hopefully, after you all read this, that will happen less often.) My brain still spends an annoying amount of time in its late teens and early twenties. This is unfortunate, but, in my case, fortunately not dangerous. And it does help me as a parent of teenage daughters.

Here are my two short speeches to my daughters and one for me and for you as a parent. Here’s the essence of growing up, boiled down as far as I can boil it down. I think they’re equally applicable to boys as well. I’ll happily extrapolate further down. Brevity is not my gift.)

First, when my daughters were too young to understand, I told them this: “I hope this never happens, but at some point in your life you may be in an uncomfortable position with a boy. When this happens, go for the knees or the balls. Injure him if necessary, but get yourself free. You can deal with the fallout later. Again, I hope it never happens, but I don’t want you to think about it if it does. You need to act. Boys sometimes can’t reason out what’s best for you or for them or for the both of you. I’m sorry. I know this is yucky, but please believe me.” This, of course, at first, prompted only running away and, “Dad! Yecch!” But it also prompted some discussion. I don’t think it made them fearful of boys. (I’ve busted both of them making out in my own house….) And I don’t think either of them has had to bust a guy in the nuts to escape a bad situation. But, I think it’s made them wary.

My more important societal contribution has been my “1-2-3-4” speech. It goes like this: "In life you get choices. When faced with a choice, ask yourself, what are the chances, if I do this, I'll end up dead, pregnant, in jail, or embarrassing my family? If the chances are good of any one of those, get yourself out of there. If the chances are basically nil of all four, have a great time!"

Simple, right? I hold up the fingers and count when I give the spiel: 1. Dead. 2. Pregnant. 3. Jail. 4. Embarrassing my family.

I’ve shared this with so many friends. I’ve told it at dinner tables and school functions. People say all the time, “What is it?” Dead, pregnant, in jail, shame on the family name.” When my girls go out now, I just hold up my hand and count silently with my fingers: 1, 2, 3, 4. The girls know. They do it jokingly with my lovely wife and me when we go out. We’ll be backing out of the garage and they’ll be standing in the doorway: 1, 2, 3, 4, wry grins on their faces. I hope it hasn’t become just a cliche to them. Even though it’s sort of over-used in our family, I don’t think it’s a cliche at all.

See, our kids don’t readily understand that everything we do in life is a choice, and every choice has consequences. You have to be willing to live with the consequences, potential or realized, of every choice you make. This is a topic for another time, but I’ve also always told the kids that they always have a choice. They can skip their meal, but they won’t be treat eligible. They can skip school, but they won’t have as many great college choices. They can not pay taxes. They’ll probably go to jail if they don’t, but they don’t have to pay those taxes.

And some choices have much bigger, much more dramatic consequences than others. Sex, as we all know, has big potential consequences. You need to be ready to deal with those consequences, and/or the relevant prevention (which isn’t as we all know, foolproof, and foolproof becomes much harder when teenage males are involved, doesn’t it?!) before you jump in. So, thinking you’re ready may not mean you’re ready. But you’ve still got to make a choice.

My lovely wife is a trauma nurse, so we had the benefit of sharing with our kids what happens when you do stupid things behind the wheel of a vehicle or when you literally play with fire. Our older daughter had a dramatic fear of fireworks in her younger years, in part from seeing some burned kids my lovely wife helped in the course of her work. That’s why dead is first. It’s all encompassing, and, as a parent, it’s our greatest fear, isn’t? I am so much less afraid of dying myself than I am of losing one of my girls. It rends my heart just to think that it’s possible. I have to prevent that if I can.

Don’t get dead. Don’t drive if you drink. Don’t drive if you’re distracted or tired. Don’t get in a car with people who are drunk, distracted, tired…. Call me. I’ll get you. No questions asked.

I saved a voicemail from one of my girls. My lovely wife and I were at an event separate from our kids, and my younger daughter called. Some kids were getting a little out of hand, drinking at a party she was attending. She called to ask if she could leave and could drive a couple of other kids back to our house where they could establish their own, alcohol free party. Yes. Yes. Yes. Dios mio, Si, y gracias!

Don’t get dead. Don’t get pregnant.

Our oldest came home from her first day of high school freshman biology with a short essay question. “Why should I take high school biology?” She asked me what I thought. This was during the heat of the 2008 presidential campaign. I said, “I have two words for you, honey. Bristol Palin.” You’ll recall that Ms. Palin, daughter of then vice-presidential candidate, Sarah Palin, was pregnant at 17. This was not a political statement or a moral invective about Ms. Palin. I simply wanted to make the point that Ms. Palin either didn’t understand the biology of baby-making at her young age, or she did understand it, but made the choice to proceed dangerously, and that choice was dramatically changing her life. Adorable Daughter #1 repeated the “two words” part in class the next day. Her teacher burst out laughing. (Again - not a political statement, people! We live in a safely Republcan district!) The kids in the class didn’t get it. Fortunately for me, that her classmates didn’t understand only served to reinforce the point for AD#1.

Having kids is awesome. It’s been the second greatest thing in my life. But having kids changes your life completely. You lose freedom. You gain a lot, but you also gain a lot of responsibility. You have to be ready for that. Are you?

This, by the way, applies equally to boys and girls. Whether we have boys or girls, I’m sure we want to teach them to be responsible for their actions. If a boy does what’s required to get a girl pregnant, he needs to know he’s responsible, needs to share that responsibility equally. In that sense, I’d have used the same 1-2-3-4 if I had boys, too.

Don’t get dead, pregnant, or in jail.

Look, there are respectable reasons to end up in jail. Many great people - the Apostle Paul, Gandhi, Martin Luther King - have shown us that. There are also stupid reasons, and you don’t want to go to jail for stupid reasons, because that stuff sticks with you. It changes your outcomes, your prospects, and your opportunities. You have to mention those things to colleges and employers, because if they find out and you haven’t mentioned it, they just wave goodbye. They no longer give you a chance.

For us “jail” has really meant “don’t break the law.” We’re supposed to play by the rules. In order for our society to work - for all of us to get along, we have these laws. Some keep us safe. Some may be a little unnecessary, but they’re the law, and we follow the law. We treat officers and our military and our elders with respect, and we follow the rules.

Don’t get dead pregnant or in jail. And don’t embarrass your family.

My grandmother always said, “Don’t bring shame on the family name.” Now, I have a tendency to be boisterous and goofy. I’ve probably singlehandedly embarrassed my daughters in more ways than I can recall, but I haven’t done it in a way that would see us ostracized from our community. That said, we’ve never defined precisely what our #4 means. We just trust each other not to do it. The girls know that ending up in jail would be embarrassing, or being delivered to our house in a squad car, or getting called into the principal’s office because of something stupid, or sexting, or any of a myriad of other things. So little is hidden these days, thanks to the intarwebs. It takes effort not to end up having something dreadful on the internet about yourself or your family. It takes not doing stuff that embarrasses your family!

1-2-3-4. "In life you get choices. When faced with a choice, ask yourself, what are the chances, if I do this, I'll end up dead, pregnant, in jail, or embarrassing my family. If the chances are good of any one of those, get yourself out of there. If the chances are basically nil of all four, have a great time!"

Try it. It works. Then, when your kids turn out great, send me a couple bucks or a free beer coupon or just a note to say thanks. That’s plenty. That, plus our society getting better.

Here’s the other piece my wife and I adopted, simply put: I guess I call it the parents' corollary: "Trust your children until they give you reason not to. Tell them you are doing this. This will require you to allow them to do things that frighten you."

We talk about what Stephen Covey called the “emotional bank account.” (http://weekplan.net/watch-s-covey-speak-about-the-concept-of-emotional-bank-account/) Basically trust in relationships accumulates as we trust our kids to do the right thing, and they do. We said to our girls, “We’re a little uncomfortable about this, but you haven’t given us a reason not to trust you, so we’re going to let you go. Here are the parameters. Be careful. Have fun. 1-2-3-4.” Fortunately, that has worked beautifully. Now, if they violate your trust, you have to have consequences. If they come home late, we say, “Sorry, we trusted you to be home on time and you weren’t. You can’t go next time, and the time after that, you’ll have to be home earlier. When you show us again we can trust you, we will.”

We really have made a point of talking to our kids. Yes, we tend to do it in a lighthearted manner, but with a force and a frequency that lets them know how important this is to us. I think, my greatest fear is the thought of one of my girls dying. My second greatest fear, I think, is the thought of one of my girls having to live with the consequences of someone else being permanently hurt or dead. And my third is for them to have their lives altered in a dramatic and limiting way. 

Funny thing about this is that it all stems from my memory of being a teenage boy and the resultant worry about how my girls would deal with teenage boys. I want them to know that I worry, and about what, boiled down to a tiny, memorable list. They won't know how much I worry until they have children of their own.

Thanks for listening. Love & peace.

(These thoughts were spoken and written about starting in perhaps 2000 and edited many times since.)

Please vaccinate your kids.

My friend, Cary, posted a link on his Facebook page to a map of recent outbreaks of vaccine preventable diseases, standing up for the importance of vaccinations. (The link’s below.) Cary’s a wonderful middle school teacher, an incredibly talented musician, and a thoughtful guy. And in this case, he’s absolutely right. I wrote the following in response to a couple of his friends who were the non-vaccinating objects of his original post and responded precisely as we’ve come to expect from the anti-vaccination movement: "There’s mercury in them thar vaccines! And we give far too many of them to our poor pincushion kids! And their efficacy is overblown with lies and damn lies so big pharma companies can make big money and pay off docs in the process! And they have other incredibly harmful side effects!"

Every bit of that is what, in distinctly un-scientific terms, would be called hogwash or bullshit. The biggest trouble is, real scientists have had to spend their real time and energy refuting this crap. Ugh.  

I know we’re fighting a battle that some people for some reason just don’t want us to win, but here’s what I wrote in reply:

Dear Cary’s-non-vaccinating-friends (and mine): I know you mean well. I think highly of you. You’re my friend, too.  We all want our kids to be happy and healthy, and most of us want everyone else’s kids to be happy and healthy, too. We all also like to be right, and it can be very hard to accept that a long-held belief just doesn’t hold up.

The map Cary posted was produced by the Council on Foreign Relations, whose mission is essentially to make the U.S. a better citizen of the world. The link to the actual map is more interesting, because you can toggle it by year and see the increases in outbreaks as more and more people are convinced not to vaccinate, decreasing herd immunity. (http://www.cfr.org/interactives/GH_Vaccine_Map/index.html#map)

Anecdotes about doctors ignoring reaction and death from vaccines just for money are particularly hypocritical considering that the patron saint of the anti-vaccination movement fabricated data for his own financial benefit, leading to many of the preventable disease outbreaks and deaths on the map Cary posted. They’re also baseless. If they were true, there would be some actual data somewhere.

Herd immunity is not a myth. If it were, smallpox would only have been eradicated by immunizing nearly everyone in the whole world, and India would not have seen zero polio cases in the last three years. Herd immunity is what has thus far kept the completely preventable outbreaks of these diseases (which should have been eradicated already) from being any more widespread.

There is no mercury in the vaccines routinely given to our children. There was never enough to endanger us. There is a trace, as a preservative, in some current incarnations of the flu vaccine. Most childhood vaccines never contained Thimerosal, and those that did have been reformulated without, because, if I’m not mistaken, actual scientists thought they could appease anti-vaccination outcry from y'all without significantly impacting the efficacy of the vaccines. They were right about efficacy and wrong about appeasement so far, unfortunately. (http://www.fda.gov/BiologicsBloodVaccines/SafetyAvailability/VaccineSafety/UCM096228#t3)

I'm so happy that people believe nutrition can have or has had such a wonderful impact on their health. It very likely has, and that's wonderful! It is, however, anecdote. It's not data. The safety of the current recommended vaccination schedule was proven in thousands of trials before it was then safely administered to millions of our children, most of whom are now safe from preventable disease, and without horrible side effects. That's data.

Vaccines don’t cause autism. They just don’t. There have been zero studies demonstrating a link between vaccines and autism. Zero. 0. None. There have been many studies demonstrating NO causal link between vaccines and autism. How many? A lot. All of them. That’s a statistically significant number.

Only in very, very rare instances do vaccines do any harm at all, and those instances are statistically insignificant enough to warrant risking that rare harm in order to protect our children and your children and everyone else’s children from diseases that have wreaked real and significant harm on many prior generations of our children and your children and everyone else’s children. I’m pretty sure that none of this hard won truth will have any impact on you or your choices. I’m hoping someone else might read it and pass it along, helping our herd.

What galls me most about this is the thought of all the time and energy our immunologists and epidemiologists - people who have given their lives and careers to protecting our children and your children and everyone else’s children - have spent refuting these vaccine fallacies. That’s time that could have been spent finding other cures. This anti-vaccine movement has not only caused disease and death where there should be so much less, it’s kept us from preventing even more disease and death. That’s what really hurts my heart about this whole discussion.

New Year's Resolutions

When I checked into Kimpton’s Hotel Palomar Philadelphia a few nights ago, there was a note on my reservation from the Concierge, Ariella, asking me what my New Year’s Resolution was. I was dumbfounded for two reasons: brevity is not my gift, so I could never have just one, and in these instances I felt like I should have had something profound at the ready.

The truth is, I have a set of resolutions I’m working on every day, so here, for Ariella (and Lindsay, the Palomar's wonderful front office manager) and the world, are my resolutions for today and every day of the impending New Year, ordered from least to most important.

• Learn some Spanish
• Get myself in shape (mostly by running and eating and drinking less (but not none!) of the nutritionally crappy stuff in my diet.
• Publish my little 1-2-3-4 treatise on parenting teens.
• Be a model of kindness and love in the world.
• Be an able adviser to clients, friends, & family.
• Raise at least $10MM for Michigan.
• Organize more time alone with my beautiful wife! Spend a couple of weekends sleeping in and eating really great food.
• Make as many moments as consciously possible moments of prayer, where prayer means making a gift to God of the practice and improvement of God’s gifts to me.
• Grow my heart so it resembles an ocean - an ocean you can throw your sorrow and suffering into and watch them dissipate, an ocean of peace and joy that overwhelms you when you really get to feel its size.