Friday, May 18, 2012

Beginnings and Endings


I am stuck today thinking about the future and my kids and their beginnings and endings. My girls will sing tonight, in a performance whose theme is "beginnings and endings", and it will be wonderful, and I will probably weep a bit - mostly in joy, but perhaps tinged with sadness at the inexorable march of time - and wallow in their moment as best I can.

I hope they can relish it, soak in it while it’s happening, because it’s just a fleeting moment, an ending of sorts, connected as all endings are to the beginning of something else. I think they can see this continuum more clearly than I. I also think we all have a tendency to wallow in the endings and forget to celebrate the beginnings. And I understand that this is because the endings are things we know and the beginnings are usually things we don’t, and it's hard to celebrate not knowing.  

So, tonight, I will wallow a bit, while thinking a lot about what may be next, and I will celebrate both the ending and the beginning in the company of my wonderful family and friends, and I will raise a toast that all our beginnings and endings continue to be entwined.

Now, I give thanks for this moment. And I work humbly.

Monday, May 7, 2012

On the Brighton Schools Bond proposal: Vote Yes May 8


A bunch of thoughts, after reading the proposal cover to cover and hearing a bunch of arguments from people who haven't:

So, the no voters put their signs up and got a couple of comments and editorials in the papers. I probably shouldn't start here, but I was absolutely appalled to see an editorial from John Conely online. He’s a school board member. He should be drummed off the board for using his position to advocate against the bond. Why on earth should he be allowed to publish widely an opinion piece promoting a position he couldn’t convince half-a-dozen fellow board members was the best course of action?

Second, if you’re going to vote no, why don’t you skip the election and put your house on the market? If you won’t pass this bond, that’s probably a better use of your time, since you don’t want to wait to sell until your property value erodes further!

Third, if you’re going to call this a sneaky election, you should do it while acknowledging that the school board superintendent has gone out and done everything in his power and within election law to make sure you’re aware there’s an election and to offer you a chance to ask your questions. There are also a gazillion signs up for both sides all over town. What about this is sneaky?

If you’re using “sneaky” as your argument, you should have called the superintendent or one of the board members and discussed with them why they wanted the election now. It isn’t, of course, because they thought they could pass the bond if they held the election in a low turnout moment. It’s because they can borrow the most for the least cost right now. Trailing averages and existing debt levy will mean higher borrowing costs in the fall, especially if property values fall further.

If the amount and duration of the bond is your issue, I understand completely. I agree that we’re encumbering ourselves for a while for a lot of money, though it won’t actually be much at a time. Restructuring old debt (a part of what the new bond does), means your increase is capped at the equivalent of about $150 per $100,000. That’s why they’ve used that number. If the bond doesn’t pass and your home values continue to fall, the current bonds will cost more than that within two years. Please folks, have a look at the math. It’s complicated, but really beneficial. (See here for a pretty simple, cogent explanation: http://bit.ly/JYoS14

Next. If it’s just that you don’t want to pay more taxes, please just go home and put your house on the market, because your self-interest is really going to get in the way of your self-interest here. If you don’t pass this bond you may save yourself $150 next year. But you’ll continue to lose property value, the district will continue to lose students, the board and superintendent will not be able to balance the budget as they’ve done this year, the buildings will deteriorate further, the kids and teachers will still have to use 1997 technology in an age where learning with technology is advancing to rapidly, etc. etc. So that $150 you’ll save yourself will probably cost you half again the value of your home in the long run. How can you be so selfish and short sighted? How can you be so short sighted that you can’t see how this bond benefits you while it’s benefitting our kids and community?

I agree that there is some merit to the “frivolity” argument. There are $16 million in athletic facility upgrades in the bond. That’s pretty substantial, and, in my opinion, maybe more than is necessary. However, as we all know, athletics brings the community together and attracts families and students. We’ve all admired someone else’s facilities. Here’s our chance to catch up.

As for keeping up once we’ve caught up? The more important part of the frivolity argument, if you’ve read the bond, is that it’s structured to set aside some maintenance reserves going forward. There’s actually thought and foresight here.

I have a lot of confidence in our current superintendent. The guy has done what so many boards and superintendents before him didn’t: he balanced the budget. We all understand what effort that took. We have teachers who are working just because they love our kids and not because they’re getting decent remuneration for what they’re doing. We have buildings that, while they may not be falling down, they’re not in good shape because we’ve penny pinched on maintenance. And, most importantly, we have technology in the district that is pretty much an embarrassment, albeit cobbled together as best as possible with available resources by some very dedicated people.

Folks, please, recognize that our frustration with the short sighted prior management of our schools has brought us here, and that this is the best way out at the moment. A better way isn’t going to suddenly present itself.

And realize just how fabulously our students have done to date with current facilities and funding and technology. Think about the amazing success of these students and teachers. Then remind yourself that, AFTER we pass the bond, we'll still have the lowest tax and debt rates of any district in the county. 

The sinking fund and private bonds that Mr. Conely suggests would be a lovely idea if there were a current market and investors who would back us; unfortunately, our existing credit history as a district would probably make private bonds far more expensive than the current bond proposal, wouldn’t guarantee the availability of funds, and would ultimately place the same or greater encumbrances on the district’s taxpayers, probably greater because of the positive environment that we now have for borrowing more dollars at a lower cost and taking care of more of our issues at once.

Please vote yes tomorrow, if not for our kids, for our property values. But really for our kids, and the kids who aren't even in the system yet.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Take a music bath...

"Take a music bath once or twice a week for a few seasons, and you will find that it is to the soul what a water bath is to the body." - Oliver Wendell Holmes, Jr.

Monday, April 30, 2012

Love & Power

Power and love are strange partners. I think we lose love when we seek power, but when we love, we become inadvertently powerful.

I saw this quote from Madonna earlier today: "Power is being told you are not loved and not letting it destroy you." I had to think about it for a minute. It's true in a sense, but ugh. So typical of the narcissistic world in which I sometimes feel we have to live. Personally, I'm not sure I have time to care if someone tells me they don't love me. I'm trying to be too busy loving others.

And with that thought it occurred to me what a paradox love & power are. If you seek power, I think you frighten love away. If you seek love, power, if you want it, will often come along. And I think, the more you eschew the power as it's offered, the more influential you become.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

If I were to tell you what to do...

I really shouldn’t. I don’t know how. I’m not very good at this life thing myself, so I certainly shouldn’t be telling you what to do. And other people have told you so much more beautifully than I could.

But if I were to tell you what to do, I might suggest reading and listening to some of those who said it far more beautifully than I. Read the Gospel of Matthew. Read e.e. cummings. Read Jonathan Livingston Seagull and Illusions by Richard Bach, and The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz, and the Seven Habits of Highly Effective People by Steven Covey and read some Gandhi and some Martin Luther King.

Listen to Bach’s Goldberg Variations and Mahler 3 or 9 and Barber’s Adagio for Strings. Listen to the end of Der Rosenkavalier. Listen to Frank Ticheli’s “There Will Be Rest” and Franz Biebl’s “Ave Maria”. Listen to Bernstein’s “Somewhere” and Schwartz’s “All Good Gifts” and “For Good.” And Jonatha Brooke’s “Because I Told You So.” And switch it up and listen to Led Zeppelin’s “Fool in the Rain” or Queen’s “Fat Bottom Girls” or any other song that makes you smile for reasons that are your very own!

And look at the sunshine. And the clean intense blue of the sky and the colors of flowers and trees. And the crystalline pure silence of white snow. And feel the power of a coming storm or the ocean’s waves.

And read a book about, or just look at pictures of the stars. And realize that, in this incredibly vast universe, you have a place, and it’s pretty closely connected to my place. That somehow, across this super-giant giant-ness, we have stumbled across each other.

And hopefully, in all that, you’ll find that you’re very, very capable of feeling.

And when you know you are capable of feeling, stop for a moment realize that we are kindred spirits on a journey of sorts, together in a way. And knowing that, know in turn that, wherever you are in this incredibly vast universe, you never have to be alone.

Because I Told You So

If I gave you the sky
If I laid down my life
Would you believe me then?
If I promised to change
If I carried the blame
Would you believe me then?
Could you see it like me
And believe what I see
Could you listen, and remember that I love you
Only,
Because I told you, because I told you so.
If you told me you lied
But I stayed true and tried
Would you believe me then?
And if your beauty was gone
But my love lingered on
Would you believe me then?
Could you see it like me
And believe what I see
Could you listen and remember that I love you
Only,
Because I told you, because I told you so.
You take the wheel for now
I'm too tired to drive this one home anyhow,
For now
And when you mention my name
Let this one thing remain,
My love,
Believe me now.
-- the incomparable Jonatha Brooke

Thursday, March 29, 2012

There will be rest, and sure stars shining
Over the roof-tops crowned with snow,
A reign of rest, serene forgetting,
The music of stillness holy and low.

I will make this world of my devising
Out of a dream in my lonely mind.
I shall find the crystal of peace, – above me
Stars I shall find.

--Sara Teasdale (1884-1933)